Love Songs

I can't stand forgetting you
Before this world would end-
I had a dream, a fleeting thought,
That I held your hand again.
  I'm terrified of living
  But too lonely here to die-
  Hopeful, selfish, as always,
  That you'll come and save my life.
Too many years ago for me to count
I used to think that love was real-
That love could last forever,
That we weren't too dead to feel.
  I burnt all my love letters,
  And spread the ashes in the sea-
  Screamed the sweet love songs,
  Till they were meaningless to me.
I am alone and so afraid
A monster scared of my reflection-
I'll kill them if they get to close,
Anything for my protection.
  Something made you different
  I let you close enough to hurt me-
  It's a shame I didn't, still won't, know,
  Who you'd turn out to be.  
I burnt all my love letters,
But I wrote them anew-
And I sang my sweet love songs,
But they were meaningless to you.