Scar

I cut out my heart
To try and find where you broke it, my
Sweet lullaby, forever unspoken,
But my heart looks the same, no
I cannot lie, I thought you were the one
And I could kill myself now
But the damage is done
(And I forgive you for leaving
But never for deceiving
For fracturing the picture
That once rested on that shelf
And if I tell you nothing else,
Know this, if nothing else,
Every hateful word to you
Was directed at myself)
Every whispered spite to you
Was directed at myself
Every bitter lie you spoke to me
Hissed so darkly through your teeth
Justified the scars I had
And brought me once again to bleed
Why must all my problems stain?
They never fade with blood and pain
Why the hell can't you just say,
You'd love me if I'd go away?
I'll carve your name above my heart
I'll rip my heartstrings far apart
I would never ask you how,
But, father
Do you love me now?